Dear Reader of my words,

The silent killer, suicide can sometimes spread through families, schools, and even social networks. The worst way to deal with things is the easy way that easy way is selfish in reasons you leave all of your problems behind and let loved ones deal with them. “Orchards” by Holly Thompson is a beautiful written achievement with themes strong enough for anyone who needs inspiration. People often turn to suicide for a feeling of relief, the ironic part of it all is that one needs to be alive to feel, ultimately suicide is the worst way to escape. Suicide can be avoided. For the ages of 15 -19, 11 out of 100,000 will commit suicide in America. Those numbers may seem small but just think how many cities have roughly that many people in it, and the chances of you personally knowing one of those 11. I chose this topic because this is a serious topic and with knowing prevention can spread faster than the spread of suicide. Kana and her friends were to blame when Ruth pulled the strings and committed suicide. While in a rural Japan farming community she reflects and learns a lot about herself and the negative effects of her actions. She realizes that if her and her friends knew the signs something, just something could have been done to stop the suicide.

Talking To My Self.. again

I can't believe I did it, there is, lying there on my bed. Ready for me

All I need to do is write my farewells and greetings to death. That noose is my way out, nothing other than this can make me feel like I used to.

What if the knot slips out and it fails and all that happens is a rope burn around my neck.

how would I than go to school and face every one , every one that hates me, that doesn't care, that won't notice when I'm gone, when my desk is empty it will only be used to held an other books or maybe someone else will replace my seat.

When is the right time?

Should I wait till my parents go to sleep or do I do it while they are at work, what happens when I drift off into the obis. Will it be calm, brighter than sun, warmer than sand after a long day, will it be all mine, a place where I can be me and not have to worry what others think? when will I arrive?

I hope its quick

Fades to black

The Black will cover me like warm blankets I hid in when mom and dad fight

about me.

This must be time, the clouds and rain are here to wash me away, it's time to be done to snap, I tell myself it will be quick and painless. what if its long and slow, I deserve that right?

I have had enough . My time ends now

10 Things to Know Before Committing Suicide

1. People WILL miss you. People will NEVER forget you .

2. Suicide is selfish and solves nothing. You leave the people around you with the problems you left behind as you add to their problems.

3. Talk to people who have been through it before and ask them for help. If they overcame their feelings than so can you. There are good chances that you live, so do not give up home. There is ALWAYS hope.

4. Feelings and actions are two completely different things. Give yourself room and time to think, just because you have feelings of suicide you do not have to act on those this moment, put distance between your feelings and actions.

5. Suicide solves nothing. Suicide is the coward thing to do. You are stronger than this, if you consider yourself strong enough to kill yourself, you are definitely strong enough to get through this.

6. Seek help. Suicide is not the answer. solving and overcoming your problems are the answers. Do not put a burden on yourself by trying to help yourself, asking for help is a huge step forward.

7. Remember that your current feelings are feelings. You can only feel and think if you are alive, suicide will not release you of your problems, and there is no way to feel the relief if one is no longer living.

8. Let go of hurts , be happy your living and healthy, heal someone else with your condition, love, look forward to tomorrow because tomorrow is a new day

9. People die yes, but not everyone lives, live your life as best as you can, death can wait, you living life to the fullest cannot.

10. Therapy is ok. It will help. Never stop caring about yourself.

Eulogy

To Cody: A best friend, a lover, a fighter, a person who was always there for me, the best friend.

some who used to smile who used to love life, always the friend who was there as soon as you get off the phone. This person was all sorts of laughter and joy, until the past year. With a family falling apart people around him falling apart as well. Drugs, Money, Fame, Popularity finally took its toll on him. he snapped, couldn't take it any longer, couldn't take the bullying. He wanted to run away but was scared that would not solve anything, which in his case it wouldn't have. Only help would have worked, only if I knew the signs. I could have stopped him from killing himself in his room al by himself.

We met unlike any friends would. we shared moments that most would never experience in a life time. Who knows where we would have ended up id things didn't have to end. He took his life, sadly not thinking about us who are here today, tears fill our eyes as we watch a friend, brother, boyfriend, classmate, and son as we watch him lower into the ground. there he will lie forever and rest until the day comes when we to join him above.

However he took his life away, If we knew the signs maybe something different would have happened.

Rest forever young my dear friend Cody Ross.

Reflection

I chose Talking to myself as one genre because I wanted to put the reader in a state of mind similar to that of one who has suicidal thoughts. I wanted you to feel the confusion and also notice how they blame everything on themselves even when it's not their fault. The difficulties I had with this one was the simple fact that I had never had a thought of suicide cross my mind ever. so I had to play pretend for a little bit. In my ten things to know I wanted to make something useful. Something that maybe someone could use if negative thoughts of suicide cross their mind, I wanted to contribute to the spread of knowledge , again I had troubles with creating things to say, because I haven't been on the other side of things. In my Caricature I had some freedom to express some feelings towards the topic. Also I had difficulty incorporating more than one thing and making it interesting to look at. My funeral speech was the easiest to me because I actually have been thorough that, a friend who was suicidal and I wasn't there for him and to this day I blame myself every single chance I get for not knowing the signs. Or even being there for him during his time of need, all I have to offer doesn't matter now because he is gone. I learned a lot about my topic and how to prevent it, how to look for it, when to look for it, how to stop it, and I understand now, more than ever that prevention comes with knowledge